Starting off

Where to start, where to start??

First off, it's a new blog. Notice the name? Honestly Stefanie. I giggle at this in a sad way because I wouldn't say that being honest is a trait that I have previously been known for. Small lies, big lies, white lies... I was pretty indiscriminate with them. And in due course it has come back to haunt me. I'm changing that. I've been changing that (more on that later). But redemption is a long and grueling road. So, let's start at where I currently am in my journey, yes?

I'm 28 years old, 5 foot 4 inches, and as of last Monday, 220 pounds. Yep, you read that right. I'm fat (why sugar coat it anymore), out of shape, and unhappy. I'm saying it. I'm putting it out there into the universe for anyone and everyone to see (including myself) in hopes that when I do, it will stop holding me back.

The how/why of my getting so large and things getting all out of control is a long and varied list that frankly I would love to push off a cliff and never, ever revisit. Right now, personally, I'm way more interested in what I am doing to move past it. I'm jumping in the deep end; it's sink or swim, baby. No bullshit. No junk. Hard work. Eating less, eating better, and getting off of my ass. I love my face; hate my body. And I want that to change. I want to love myself.

From here on out I am going to blog about my journey in all it's glory or flames. I have some good friends who are on board with me and I am very excited to see myself 1 year from now.

Hopefully wearing a smaller pants size :)